Getting a doc appmt is kind of stressful! I just want to make one but keep finding out I’m still a step or two behind so have to backtrack, haha…..

Bible verse from New King James Version:

Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10

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What is fear in relation to God and what it says in the bible? Is this fear a “good” thing? Is God always going to “strike us down” like lightning if we don’t follow his ways?

Fear is merely being afraid or scared of something, right?

That’s my own definition anyway. But the bible is clear that being “afraid of God” means something we might not expect.

(Sorry people for being up a little later than usual. Apparently this site gets views mostly by 11. It’s 12 now and going past at this typing but I hope that people will check it out a little later this time, hahaha…)

To be fearful of God means to be in mind of His commandments. I don’t mean people who know they have to love their already loving friends that if they get upset at them one day they should now fear God.

I mean taking His commandments seriously.

A person who fears God shouldn’t be looking online for images and videos that don’t honor God and then say to a friend “God will forgive me. I did feel bad about it afterwards. But it was ‘okay’ though…”

A person who fears God shouldn’t be checking out gossip mag after gossip mag and then say “Well I can say this about Joan, she’s just like that ‘slutty chick’ in this magazine!” But knows that gossip is wrong!

A person who fears God shouldn’t have hate or some kind of awfully strong feeling towards others they know they love. Why hate when the body was made for a better purpose…?

Years ago I had a few emotions I didn’t know what to do about. I was jealous about other people’s lives. They had family who were in the church, many who they were sure knew the Lord and served Him… and yet people in my immediate family didn’t show any form of growth. My mother, I was afraid, may have been headed towards hell.

I saw so many at church who were great examples of both a woman and mother in Christ. They celebrated others’ lives, people who might start off in new futures, something that was great and they showed joy and happiness!

I grew up avoiding telling my mother if there was a “new baby” coming for not just with church family, but with literally any family, because like clockwork my mom would (and still does get at times) jealous about others’ new beginnings.

My mom had a number of very fine boys (okay, maybe a few good ones and one “Stooge.” Me as Curley: I’m “defended.” How dare me….?!)

Yet to this day wished she had a daughter…

Boys who are healthy, who are well, that doesn’t matter at all to her. She still wished she had a daughter.

My mom thinks if things don’t turn out in ways exactly like “everyone” else then God might not be real.

Well she never denied God but in my heart I felt she was so awful about things, it was like she had the heart of someone who didn’t believe that God was real!

There’s a seeming protection to her expectations. Her probably personal rule: If things don’t go ‘her way,’ then life is completely awful.

She’s sick of being like “Job.” But she first has to realize there are many blessings that she needs to see that are here and now!

I’ve said again and again count your blessings.

Her reaction every time: “WHAT BLESSINGS…??”

She might be changing now but … my mom changes silently so I can never know how she is growing or if she is about thinking of what God has given us versus what He in a sinner’s toil, “refuses” us to have in physical riches.

We must think of many things we learned or have learned in life if we know certain bible verses. To love others, to love the Lord our God with all our heart.

We must do His commandments and follow Him.

Mine is to honor God. There were times I was tempted to give in to being with a man but I thought “No. That is wrong…!”

Not just because it is sin, not just because it would not be right…

but because it does not prove that God is in my life. Also I have had amazing, “impossible” things happen in my life that I am humbled by.

Lord, You changed me in a way I thought I could do myself (nope) but instead you turned me around long ago in a way I didn’t expect!

You made the impossible possible!

And that was because of Christ and I am in effect a NEW creation… something that was not before!

What a testimony but you can have it too if you strive on and live for Him. Don’t “fear” Him in the worldly way, just keep in mind His commandments.

If you fail ask for forgiveness. He’ll be in front of you to guide you forward every step of the way. Let Him take you by His right hand, and lead You day to day towards righteousness!

Amen.